Hey everyone! I'm ella25. Came out a couple of months ago after being in a straight relationship for 5 years. Family don't know but a select number of friends do and have been amazing. There was a lot of self hatred, self shaming, and downright unproductive feelings I had towards myself; but I feel like I'm finally pulling through it. Had strong feelings for a close friend for a long time so decided to tell her, unfortunately the friendship died soon after that but I've learnt that no amount of optimism was going to change that. It hurt, a lot. Happy to discuss with anyone who has been in a similar situation. Now I've got the whole world ahead of me where I can finally feel like I'm 100% myself. I actually don't know any gay people personally so here's to this being the first step in an exciting part of my life. Although I've got supportive friends, it can be quite lonely not having a gay friend to talk to. I'm still in my coming out process, and it will be a slow one, but that's OK ella25
WOW! I love your optimism! It can be a rough road sometimes but keep your chin up and charge on! New to this site also but it's already taught me some things. Wish we'd have had something like this 20 years ago. Our closest was the yahoo gay teen chat room haha.
Thanks everyone! Just reading your welcoming replies made me so happy and added to the growing feeling that being gay is completely normal. This thread alone has just helped me continue to accept myself, just that little bit more.
