this is my 3rd thread on here. Thank you everyone for taking the time to read and to offer advice, and to be so kind. I started having sex with another out girl; she turns me on massively. She's the first girl I fell in love with 3 years ago. We've been texting and maintaining an emotional relationship. I am currently separated from husband (for other reasons, but also because I wanted to stop denying things). So she comes by after work, which gives me anxiety. Anxiety that I won't be able to keep a poker face at work, and about the fact that maybe it's wrong? If I'm not 100%divorced? - she told me how much she loved me the other night, which is also when she tried to spend the night and I had been trying to tell her to go home so I can sleep. I feel like she is pushing the boundaries. This is also causing me anxiety. - last night I wasn't able to climax, I was tremendously tired and I was thinking about work, because I felt like I could've paid more attention about a certain thing. Am I back to being a prude and not enjoying sex, or is her behavior and my tiredness turning me off? - I'm so conflicted about this: I enjoy dominating her. She loves it, is in ecstasy. I am surprising myself with this sort of behavior; not dominatrix stuff, but just rough sex from behind while she's wearing clothes, holding her really tight around shoulders so she can't move...like who am I?????? I kinda thought I was straight and I'm 30, although I never really enjoyed sex. I wanted to peg my husband really bad but he wasn't open to it...like is it wrong? I don't even know what to ask really.
