So I'll try to keep this as short as possible. (I'm gonna be mentioning heavy stuff so if you're triggered by depression etc. please do not read this.) I was diagnosed with depression a few years back. As stupid as it sounds it has ruined my life. I was an almost straight A's student and now I can't even get past the school year. Except from the huge disappointment in myself I started blaming myself for a lot of things I had no control over. I became suicidal and ended up in the hospital. I'll skip the details. I've been going to a psychiatrist ever since and have been prescribed pills. Neither of them have helped me. So as of today I am 17 years old, in the 1st year of highschool with severe depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts. Luckily I managed to realize how stupid harming myself is but I still punch walls some times. I don't know how I'll be able to support myself since most days it's hard to even get out of bed and I have no idea how I'll be able to pay for hormones or my transition surgery. We're not a rich family and while my parents won't kick me out of the house when I turn 18 I don't wanna stay here. I don't know what to do and I never imagined my life would be so out of my control. So if you have and advice to give me I'd really appreciate it cause I really want to try and get my shit together.
