So I made a post in the welcome lounge in early June. In it I described how I had severe social anxiety (self-diagnosed as Avoidant Personality Disorder, and I know, self diagnosed is not a good thing, but I have been to three specialists [note three, as in I always quit going after a month or two] and never got a straight answer). Anyway, I also mentioned how I forced myself back into the closet because I couldn't confront my parents, and so I let them have their denial. Well, I am better able to express myself on paper then out loud, so I wrote a 10 page letter to my mom. Then I put it on her bed before she went to sleep because I couldn't bring myself to give it to her directly, and no matter how bad I wanted to run back for the letter I didn't. Well, I managed to get through to her and everything went good. We hugged, but I wasn't in the moment, I was detached and it all felt surreal. So it only took another 4 years but I have busted out my closet door. :eusa_danc Anyway, that just leaves my dad, but he isn't the head of the family and we're not as close, so I am not as worried (also because I decided for another no confrontation, either my mom does it for me or I just let it out by me being me).
