I am 26, Bi, and male. How does one deal with a serious change in ones personality? For years i have repressed my feminine side, bottling it up deep inside myself. "Be a man." This is due largely from becoming a US Marine. Now that i have allowed my femininity to manifest itself into my personality, i am having a serious difficulty keeping my mental state and emotions in check. What exacerbates this further is while im out, i have nobody who is both interested and has the time to help me deal with all this emotional and mental baggage. I dont want to burden any relationship prospects with this right on the get go. To paraphrase, i need cuddles and someone to talk to and i need it NOW.
Hi *cuddles* This forum is here exactly to help you « » And maybe lgbt friends in "real" life will have more patience than cis-hetero people because they know what "it" (emotional mess about gender identity, gender expression and sexuality) means. Or you can write a stream of consciousness. It helps me a lot; I don't need to write things with sense, order, punctuation or decency. It's like... vomiting thoughts, sometimes.
Writing stuff out has helped, but it isnt getting me to where i want to be. Unfortunately i don't have many lgbt friends, and the one friend i have that i am very close to and confortable with is too busy to help me.
Hey maybe you could look for an LGBT support group or centre near you, if you would prefer real life people to talk to. Or an LGBT therapist could help you navigate this difficult period.
