So I'm watching TV and I see a gay sex scene and a straight one. When I saw the straight one I was kinda thinking, why can't it be that simple. I do have attractions to women, I've never had the opportunity (or been able to take the opportunity) with women. I feel like lots of women will not accept a bi guy for a partner and feeling like I can be more free with my gay side, I think has made me focus more on that. In addition, since I am a 41 year old virgin, I kinda feel like guys will be more understanding because if I'm just accepting myself as gay/bi, that would explain my lack of relationships and experience where most women are suspect of my orientation thinking I'm gay and they would be wasting their time on a relationship that won't work So I guess I envy straight people because they don't have to deal with one more thing in the complex nature of relationships in general.
