As a young child, I remember feeling strongly attracted to women (girls) upon hitting puberty and growing up through the early stages of my adolescent life. However, I did experience some bi-curiosity too, as most teenagers do. By the time I was in high school I determined I was straight, but I still question myself about my sexuality at times because I've only had 1 girlfriend and I'm still single. I feel as if I can only feel sexually attracted to a girl if I have deep romantic feelings for the person and strong emotional attachment to them. I'm almost certain I'm not gay, because I really don't feel attracted to men and the thought of having sex with another man is gross to me. I also feel sexually deprived as a man in my 20's whose still a virgin. While I do like women, I'm not attracted to vag*nas, is that normal? Should I consider seeing a therapist and getting this figured out once and for all? I want to be happy in life and have a healthy relationship with a loving girlfriend/spouse eventually, but at this rate I don't know what to do.
any chance you're asexual? maybe asexual and hetero-romantic? that's not a disease, and it is real as any other orientation.
Thanks Wildside, I appreciate your feedback. I honestly think it's possible. When I was with my ex girlfriend she was the only person I felt attracted to, which is part of the reason it hurt so bad when she left. I was deeply romantically attracted to her, and I still have nightmares and thoughts from time to time. I'll look into hetero-romantic.
and I'm just guessing that Wyoming isn't the easiest place for someone to be themselves, if themselves is not macho straight. that can make it a lot harder to figure out. hetero-romantic just means that you are romantically attracted to the opposite sex (I guess in some way you might say that most straight people would be this too, though I guess they wouldn't use that term). Urban dictionary defines hetero-romantic as "Attracted to the oppostite sex in a romantic way, but not necessarily in a sexual way. Often used by asexuals." but you might want to look into the asexual part a bit more.
I'll look into it, thanks again for the advice. I might be asexual but if I were then I probably wouldn't have felt sexual attraction to women in the past, so you're probably correct that I lie somewhere in the hetero-romantic region. You're correct about my state, Wyoming is highly conservative, so it's hard for people in the LGBT community to be themselves. Coincidentally, I actually looked up hetero-romantic on Urban Dictionary myself and saw that same definition before you told me.