Small Victories

Everyone in my close family, almost all of my friends, and a good amount of the people at work now know I'm trans and they all seem really chill about it. I also recently got a therapist. I feel a lot better now and I hope this year remains nice to me. I want this year to be the one where I accomplish a lot of things I always day dreamed about

 

I got orange Spiro this time....never seen that before, but they're pretty. Lol

 

like a pale orange? that's like the ones I have.

 

Yep, pale orange.

 

twinsies haha

 

upon a second look, i guess these are more peachy, the last batch was orangish. different supplier maybe? its the same dosage, but different pharmacy.

 

A very gay dude hit on me in drive thru. I feel like he was just messing with me to make me uncomfortable, which worked XD IDK what to say to that. I just laughed awkwardly. But hey I'll call it a victory.

 

To my suprise i pass really well even with my D cup (i am on the heavier side so that helps). My moms friends tell her that i've grown into a fine young man when i'm with her and that makes me feel pretty great for a second but she always corrects them 'cause i'm not out yet. New teachers get confused too when they call out names and see mine. I'm the only female in class. Can't even entertain the thought of transitioning yet though but i'm good for now. Baby steps

 

I used the men's (single cubicle that doesn't lock) bathroom yesterday. I was terrified the whole time that someone might walk in on me and being the only "woman" in the building made it even more possible

 

so i was going over the highway yesterday and had to go.... i stopped at a gas station and there's a line at the mens and no one in the ladies..... (i was presenting as male since i just came from work) and i shrugged and went to the ladies, the spiro was making me, well you know.:eek: when i came out there was a woman there giving me a 'look'. i winked at her and walked out, i noticed that there were more than a few men there looking amused at the exchange i just ignored them and got in my van and went on my way. im calling that a victory.

 

earlier this week, when I started taking my meds, a guy comming into the men's room thought he was in the wrong room, it happened again the next day and that guy looked at the door to see the sign.

Double victory there ^.^

Also, I finally got my full membership ^.^

 

This week on "Things That Will Never Happen in Scandinavia." Next week, pretending other people don't exist at the bus stop.

 

I think I'm getting baby hairs in my hairline! It may be rounding out.

 

I guess this is both a victory and a loss.
I've been taking my birth control pills + discarding the pink pills at the end of the month (the ones that are only there so you don't forget to get a new package once your period is over) so I don't have any periods, and I've been doing that for maybe a month now? It was helping me feel a lot less depressed since, on top of not having any proper periods, I also wouldn't bleed or be in extreme pain randomly in the middle of the month like I would normally. Now, though, I'm starting to feel depressed again. :Y

 

Court date for my name change is scheduled for March 23rd!