Small Victories

Well, I can have my HRT letter whenever I want!

 

I truthfully came to this thread to post that a friend just got some very positive news and I am so happy. I love seeing people I care about accomplish things that make them happy! That friend is obviously you

To be honest I am crying thinking about how happy I am for you. You've fought so hard and now it's all starting to pay off. I am super emotional right now!

 

Sorry if that was super awkward. I'm a weirdo

 

I've been talking my wife's ear off as I obsess about my relatively new understanding of my (bigender) identity. She has not been disturbed or upset or depressed or concerned. She bought me earrings (clip-ons! yay!) and a bracelet for my birthday. She took me shopping to the best consignment store around and another store nearby, and instead of the dress or two I was expecting, we came away with four tops, two skirts, two pairs of (women's) pants, two dresses, and two cardigans. Then she took me shopping for makeup and guided me through getting what I needed. Later, when we were home, she patiently taught me how to use everything. Tonight, for my birthday, I came home and dressed for the evening, and we made dinner together and watched a chick flick, all with me in my female mode, with full dress and makeup. I asked her for critique today on my makeup (it was the first time I'd done it alone), and she had no corrections. (We both agreed that my hair was not spectacular and would probably start looking better as it grew out.) She considered my outfit and said "You need black shoes." Yes, her reaction to my outfit was that I should buy more shoes.

All of that focuses on my female self, but I already knew I could be accepted as my male self (male is my birth sex). To really have it demonstrated to me that I could be both of my genders and be completely loved is mind-boggling. I've thought of it as a flaw and an aberration for so long, I keep thinking, "that's it? I get to keep this?"

I know I'm incredibly lucky. I'm not bragging: I'm so, so grateful. I also want to broadcast to anyone who hasn't found their person yet that loving, wonderful people are out there who will love you and encourage you regardless of your gender and presentation.

Kit

 

It's okay, poor use of gif. lol. This one works better:

 

I got promoted at my night job and am now full time and making an additional three dollars per hour! That's like an extra 700 bucks a month! And I got to wear my new uniform today, a men's small. I wore the exact same uniform in the same size last year and often buttoned the collar all the way up. Tried doing so today and nearly suffocated. So yeah my neck has gotten a lot thicker. Like an inch and a half thicker. And I'm just overall bigger. I'm no longer drowning in that shirt.

 

YAAYYYYY!!!!!(*hug*)

---------- Post added 16th Dec 2016 at 10:34 AM ----------

so, im supposed to be in court right now. I called my lawyer yesterday to confirm the time for the divorce hearing and he told me it was cancelled because the papers are all filed and it's done! so, last night I posted this on my facebook. if you've seen this I guess you know who I am, haha.....sshhh...

Free at Last, Free at Last, Great God Almighty; I am Free At Last....” Words of Dr Martin Luther King. Words that resonate with so many in so many ways, free from prejudice, free from discrimination, or on a personal level free from the trials and tribulations of personal hardship or relationships that are not good for you or those around you.
It has been a long haul, of darkness, of pain, of strife; but to not be swallowed by the darkness, crippled by the pain or defeated by strife to not go quietly into that Good Night is truly to be Victorious, to be Independent. This is my truth today, finally the final papers are filed with the courts, all is done and as my lawyer said, I am a Happily Divorced Person; I am Victorious, this is my Independence Day. I am Free!


pretty hugh victory.... (!)(!):eusa_danc(!)(!)

 

Yay!

 

A new teacher called me a boy even after I'd talked to him....but then corrected himself. Still.

 

My case worker didn't have time to see me again til after I get back from my trip, she had a phone check up scheduled with me and cancelled yesterday cause she was under the weather. Now though she is coming today to see me at 2! I have never had support like this before, I have seen her 3 times in the last week and a half. Usually I have to wait weeks between therapy visits (which I do still go to as well). So this is just really nice

 

so, kinda a huge victory for me yesterday. Had my first therapy session, so in my book I've officially started my transition, and my therapist told me effectivly that I could be on hormones in as little as 3 months(6 sessions). also he can even help with trying to get my family to be more supportive.

I was surprised to fund out that I already cleared barriers that other therapists might have, like being out to family for a year, and that the "2 year wait" for hormones doesn't exist anymore, as far as the official book goes.

My Dad even wants to come to one of my sessions in future. He even took the news of me starting therapy much better than I thought he would.

---------- Post added 16th Dec 2016 at 11:18 AM ----------

oh I almost forgot, my theraoist also gave me some papers about what kind of changes to expect on hormones.

---------- Post added 16th Dec 2016 at 11:19 AM ----------

typing on a 3ds is difficult, please excuse my typos.

 

yayy for you, glad it went so well.

 

I'd have had her write it right then, if it wasn't for some logistical barriers, (mostly family) that prevents me from starting yet. I'm hoping to start climbing them this month so I can ask for my note my next session.

I'm actually HAPPY today, for the first time in months. I had no idea one piece of good news was all I needed to change my mood! I'm so so so sooooo excited to actually start transitioning!

 

light at the end of a real long tunnel hun.

 

That's what it feels like! I can see the light.

 

Is mom finally coming around!? If so I'm so happy for you!