I have an older sister who is 11 years older than me, an older brother who is 10 years older than me, and another older brother who is 9 years older than me. All three of them are half-siblings to me. I also have a twin sister. Of my older siblings, I'm closest to my older sister. Despite her leaving for college when I was 7, getting married when I was 13, and moving around constantly between being 7 and 14, I have a decently close relationship. She visited every once in a while. It wasn't rare for her to visit, but it wasn't common. We have a lot in common and it's always fun hanging out with her. My oldest older brother moved out when I was 8 and rarely visits my parents and I. We had a lot in common as well but it was different than my older sister and I. I really wish we could hangout more often, however recently I'm seeing him more often. My youngest older brother didn't move out until I was maybe 10-12, I can't remember. He, unlike my other older siblings, has lived in the same town as I since he moved out and visits quite often. We don't do a lot of stuff together as we're complete opposites but I still love him like a brother and enjoy seeing him when he comes by the house. I have wished for a long time that, despite home situations being much more unpleasant when they were kids versus how it is now, that I was born in the 90s like them and was much, much closer to their ages. It's my biggest regret in life, even though I didn't choose it, that our ages are so far apart. We've lived completely different lives. Me growing up had them pretty absent from my life. It, a lot of the time, feels like I belong to a family of 4 rather than 7. If I could rewrite reality so that we could be closer in age, I would do so in an instant. I am a huge modern technology geek but I wouldn't mind giving it up for that. I wouldn't mind having to deal with the unpleasantries they did. Does anyone else feel like me, or have you had a different experience with extremely older siblings?