When I joined this website, I stopped going to church due to Covid-19. I also stopped answering the emails and phone calls of my pastor and church friends. I was in a really dark and sad place due to my sexuality and thought that I should distance myself from them because of the clearly homophobic environment. Now, my mom made me talk to my pastor and church friends and they want to know when I'm coming back. Restrictions are easing here. I told them that I would be back this Sunday. However, I'm scared. Being on this website helped me feel better with my sexuality. I'm worried that going back to this environment will bring back all the pain I had. However, I don't know how to leave my church, and I do miss my friends there. What do I do?