Hi everyone, Looking for any & all advice about my sexuality & whether I am straight or bi. I understand no one can make the decision for me of what my orientation is, but any similar stories would be helpful for me in processing my own thoughts. Overall, I know a few things for sure: -i am attracted to men, though only a few who I’ve been very physically attracted to -there have been plenty of times where I have felt something is wrong because I have had numerous experiences where I go on multiple dates with a guy that is absolutely perfect on a paper but just never develop feelings even though they do -Typically it’s much easier to feel physically attracted to men that I have an emotional connection to & I have been legitimately bored doing physical things with certain guys before that I didn’t have that connection with -I’ve never actually had an orgasm with anyone -I’ve only been in 2 relationships with men, none in about 8 years -I’ve always felt like I’m “supposed” to be gay, based on my interests. I know there can be straight, masculine women, but to me it just has always felt like it would make more sense if I were gay. - I could describe women that I feel are very attractive & would be able to describe what I would be looking for in a female partner. -I’m very drawn to lesbian culture in music, podcasts, tiktok, life, etc - currently, I’ve never really felt a desire to be physically intimate with women - the thought of going on a date with a women terrifies me & makes me anxious Given all of the above, my thoughts are centered around 1 of 2 things. 1) because I’ve always felt more masculine & have had little luck dating men, part of me isn’t sure if I’m subconsciously drawn to lesbian culture trying to find something that would seem to make more sense for me, but I’m actually straight 2) I’m actually bi and internalized homophobia is stopping me from having thoughts about being physical with women any advice at all would be welcomed especially if your story is similar!