Once you realized your true orientation, did your sexual nature change?

I suppressed being gay for years,
before i accepted my self (I am gay) - before, when having sex with a woman my 'vision' of sex was trying as hard as I can to ejaculate as fast as possible partially because if I didn't I'd lose my erection.

Even when masturbating - i would 'death grip' myself and try to ejaculate as fast as possible while thinking about a woman - part of that was my denail- i convinced myself because I ejaculated about a woman I wasn't gay.

It was much easier thinking about guys but, being in denial i would 'switch' at the last moment and convince myself I really orgasmed because of the girl.

Once I am started to accept my homosexual feelings, the 'feeling of pleasure when masturbating became all over my body, I also started to experiment with butt plugs and other toys and I realized I didn't have to even ejaculate to really really enjoy sex.

now that i have accepted myself i more think about pleasing a guy via a blow job- and the 'sexual' feelings are all over my body not just my penis... and i've even lost interest in ejaculating as the primary focus of sex.

I don't have a boyfriend yet but I more see myself pleasing and pleasuring him and getting off on that rather than cumming... so i feel my sexual nature is very different now.

Anyone else experience something similar?

 

Me too. What's amazing is i found that the less sexual fantasizing was even more intense!

yes. when i tried to date women there was no real satisfaction in doing that - i had to 'get off' where sometimes the fantasizing about guys is so intense, I don't have to orgasm or even think about sex.

yes i was amazed how much it changed from this focused 'penis butt' fantasy to a total body and mind experience. this is one of the most pleasant surprises of accepting my sexuality.