Neurodivergence asessment as an adult?

Yes, I’m grieving. I believe it has to get better at some point, as always, it’s a new piece of true information after all, it has to help things work, truth always does. I hope I’m making sense. But now I’m in a shock, I was so wrong.I’m grieving lost possibilities too, I think.

Oh, I don’t doubt my gender with regard to that, it actually makes sense now why I feel so misunderstood with my experience.

 

Why do you not like the term?

tbh I have a hard time comprehending what you write, I’m not sure why that is. It seems to me that there are some impressions that you get and then have a few steps of reasoning before you say something, in my case, this reasoning doesn’t ring with me in any way, I read it, and then my first impression is that I barely know what you are referring to at all, and then I start to reason it out and come up with a few options, but I’m unsure. It’s for example not clear to me why you would say “First I do understand that you’re on the spectrum” and what it’s supposed to mean, for example. I’m not sure if you’re irritated or that you assumed that I’m someone who has a lot of difficulties and this phrase (together with the next sentence) was supposed to mean that you’re underlining this thought. I also think that you seem to think that I was irritated and this is why I explained clearly how I can or can’t ask for help, I wasn’t irritated, just explaining. It’s nice of you that you didn’t assume that anything is easy, it’s very inclusive and kind. I was also just explaining who I told about ASD - no irritation on my part. You brought it up - I responded, explained. It also could be that you thought I’m underlining as if you didn’t understand my being on the spectrum (I’m new to the topic, I don’t know which word is preferred to use), but I wasn’t.

you seem like someone who enjoys conversations and it bugs me, so I hope you don’t mind me asking for details

 

Oh, I see. I kind of had that intuition.

It might be true.

Ahaaa this way. I never really thought of that tbh. I'm kinda desensitized to the words such as "autism", "aspergers" etc. I know quite a few people who have formal diagnosis due to having had learning difficulties despite being smart and... I like them as people, they have some set of difficulties, but it matters as much as wearing glasses.

Obviously a term like "autism spectrum" sums up a bundle of traits that go together.

 

Can I ask which ones apart from the eye contact and sensitivity? These ones are obvious. I'm curious. And my super-detailed rant on what could be going on in another person's mind.

 

Okay so it's been a month but it feels like ages. To be honest, it's actually getting better, it turns out that overstimulation is a *huge* issue for me and my "psychological" problems result from being constantly subjected to things that are stressful and draining for me, e.g. attending all classes at university in person (few people do that, btw), shopping malls, noise, feeling like I need to go to places instead of chilling out at home after classes or some other activity, feeling like I need to put on an act in front of people to "look confident" and generally speaking the way most people socialise. As I've turned the volume of everything down, it seems like I don't feel as anxious in relationships with others or about exams and it's natural to have a healthy calm approach and to set appropriate boundaries without fight or flight response kicking in. I'm mad that nobody has figured it out earlier... It seems like nobody before had a good grasp of autism, especially in the case of people who can blend in. And it never crossed anyone's mind that the source of my distress might be... largely physical. I'm not 100% there yet, but there is improvement in just about everything. I still have to figure out how to socialise without the party crowd, but now I have exams at university and then I will leave for vacation.