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Nervous and Insecure

Discussion in 'Coming Out Advice' started by ebra, Nov 6, 2007.

  1. ebra

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    I dont really know what I am expecting here, just some feedback or something I guess. I have always been a little curious about females and now I find myself frightfully in love. But I am very worried about the sexual aspect of it. I find that I am even more insecure with the idea of being with a girl then I am with guys. I dont really know why, I mean, I have always been unsure of myself, and especially when it comes to sex. I just dont know is expected from me if I did decide to hook up with a girl? I dont want to seem too inexperienced, I have even thought about renting some porn or something lol. but I live with a very conservitive boyfriend, who would not be even a little okay with finding me with that. Any help or suggestions? warnings or something?...:S
     
  2. Ty

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    Silly girl, you dont need to RENT porn, you can watch it on the internet, with no risk of it being found, if you erase your history correctly =]
    Im not sure what to say to everything else, since i prefer the male side of things, so good luck with whatever you do =]
     
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    lol I know i dont need to RENT it. bad choice of words. and my boyfriend is my computer tech, so he fiddles with my computer alot. I dont know much about them.
     
  4. Ty

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    Ah, urhm.....well i know a few programs that delete your history and all evidence of it (H)
    but thats another story all together, if your curious ill show you how!
     
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    lol and then on another topic, I have never watched porn before....is it even a logical representation!?
     
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    Watching porn on teh internet may get your computer infected eventho you dont download it

    Oh yeah, never have sex with the gender you're not sure about

    To deete the history just right clikc on the Internet Exploere Icon then click Property delete cookies, delete files, and delete history

    If ya never watched it before then dont watch it cuz you may no tlike it , well, it depends, cuz you'll feel weird
     
  7. Ty

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    Depends what sites you use, really.

    Use a program called CCLEANER to delete history and blah blah, much simpler

    and i agree, if your not sure about your feelings, then its proberly best you don't sleep with that gender, it can turn out very complicated.
     
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    There may be romantic and sensual porn somewhere on the internet.Most I've found is much like a gynaecologycle examination.The point seems to have an orgasm in 90 seconds.I don't know much about computers but I believe it is very hard to completely delete .
    Books have a lot to offer for fantasy, romantic discovery adventures.
     
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    I think it's normal to be worried about sex, whether male or female and with a male or female. Like, I know certain girls like certain things when it comes to sex, but never having what might be termed as a "proper" girlfriend, I am woefully inexperienced in that field too. Communication as I have recently learned, is very important. If you're feeling unsure about the sex, don't do it, if you're just feeling nervous about the sex, then that could be something entirely different, you could feel sexually attracted to a girl, but nervous that you're not going to live up to the expectations of the girl when it comes to sex. But I'm not you, so I'm afraid it's up to you to figure out exactly what you are feeling.

    Good luck and I hope this helps!
     
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    just to lt you know there is no program that can "delete" your history. the only thing they do is rewrite on-top of it so it is almost impossible to tell. but i'm sure it's good enough to trick somebody.
     
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    ebra.......forget the porn. If it is with the right person, everything will come naturally. I know, I sound like a mom but it's true! I think the real problem is why are you living with a guy when you are attracted to girls?
     
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    I am not insecure about my feelings, I am very sure on taht, I am just insecure about my self and my capabilities. Im not used to being a virgin again I guess. I am worried about being completely clueless, and I know that the girl in question is very quiet and awkward with talking, so it does hinder the communication.

    The porn thing was really kind of a joke. lol. and if i were to watch porn on my computer, then I would probably not even try to hide it, cause it was be his own fault for snooping. I just dont want him to find out like that.

    Why I am living with this boy at all is really more the question, it is complicated. I have been seeing him for two years, and I was in love with him and I was happy with him, but ever since I have been able to admit to myself that this girl means so much to me, things have gotten harder and weirder, and I do know that I should be honest with him, but there are so many other problems in the relationship that I do not want my sexual orientation to be the factor that he sees. When I do end the relationship, he needs to know that there were other reasons, and not just her. And for the record, I do know with out a doubt that my feelings for said girl are not a product of my crappy boyfriend relationship :grin:
     
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    I'm with Becky on this one.

    Just relax, if you get into a relationship with a girl there is no shame in telling her that you have never had a relationship with a girl. I am straight so I don't really know what I am talking about but I would imagine it's much the same as with guys :

    You have a nice cuddle, you kiss, you caress and explore the other person's body and then let it go from there. Everyone likes different things. If you had a different boyfriend he wouldn't necessarily like what your ex liked.

    Exploring the other person's body, what turns them on, what excites them is all part of getting to know that person, there is no right or wrong. Each new partner is virgin to you. Your new potential g/f doesn't know what you like either she will just have to spend time cduddling you and finding out :icon_bigg . The advantage is that you are a girl so you already have an idea of what girls like he he he :icon_bigg
     
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    I fully agree. To quote my mother "A woman knows what a woman wants":thumbsup:
     
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    Porn won't teach you anything.
     
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    i agree - just go with the flow. everyone needs to discover for themselves what they like and what their partner likes, it can't be taught. just don't do anything you feel unsure or worried about, you'll know when you're ready. most importantly, have fun :slight_smile:

    laura
     
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    I knew that was the answer...lol although I kinda hoped that I would be wrong and that there was just some secret lesbian handbook I have never read before. I think that If I could get a little more secure with myself then things would be alot easier. Otherwise, I guess I plunge in head first with out really knowing anything :grin: sink or swim right?

    Thanks guys, I needed that reminder.
     
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    good luck with your difficult-sounding situation... :kiss: personally i'm looking forward to a little virginal fumbling... once you're a pro and know exactly how things will run it might grow stale, no? :icon_wink
     
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    I think I would be a little more excited if it was a mutual fumbling. lol but shes already gone pro and I just feel, inadequet. I dont even know what to expect really. lol. totally clueless!