So I met a guy who is really hot. We had a nice conversation and he asked me to hang out. Then he got physical. Hand on shoulders and pulled me in close to him. Soon I was hard and then... well we ended up having sex (no anal), and it was my first time. Felt amazing, 0 complaints although best part was actually the cuddling tbh. Did basically the same again the next weekend but I stayed over that time and slept (like unconciousness) with him in his bed. And he seems to at least like me in bed because he wants to keep doing what we are doing but I'm kinda worried my feelings are growing faster than his. And he is 30+ while I am 18. (Although he looks young, at first I thought he was in his 20s). Anyways idk, it is just moving fast and I like him a lot but I'm worried I'll catch feelings and then he will suddenly not want to spend time with me anymore. And worse my parents and family would probably freak out because I have been sleeping w/ an older guy whom they have never met (they don't like me being gay anyways and are pretty passively homophobic although never directly mean to me because of it). Anyways he is on vacation right now and I honestly am beyond excited and nervous for his return. Miss him a bit more than I think I should. Kind of more a rant than a question, but feel free to respond or ask questions.