I’m a 49 year old man. I’ve been married to a woman for most of my adult life. I have always known I was gay but for religious reasons among other things I’ve never been able to come out. I am currently in my second marriage. We have been married for 10 years. She is very good to me. Always treats me with respect and puts my needs before hers. I’m not sure if I’m having a midlife crisis or what but for the past 4 or 5 years It’s gotten increasingly difficult to deal with this situation. I’ve been sad. I’ve been having thoughts that life is passing me by. Feeling like I’m missing out on something. What I don’t know. My wife and her family are very homophobic so it seems impossible that I could ever come although that is what I would really like to do. I don’t want to hurt my wife. I just don’t know what to do.