This past year I've been more than a little confused, and if you can't tell I still am. I mean it feels like I don't know who I am anymore and that isn't a fun feeling. I mean the last person I dated was around three years ago (my freshman year, I just graduated high school), and I thought it was just that I livved in a small town with a small pool of people to date. Then this past year rolls around and I start to notice people that I've thought "if I was a guy I'd date them immediately" and all the sudden I was thinking that I wished they were into girls so I could date them. My school is not a tiny school but it wasn't a large school so I didn't have anyone to talk to who could honestly help me figure anything out, hence I'm here trying to figure this out.
I so understand. It sucks; it's difficult! You might be bi or a lesbian - but try not to question too hard. If you like girls, hey, that's okay - it's perfectly normal. It will take time, but don't worry: you will figure things out. Feel free to PM me.
Honestly, I would leave things for a while. This may be a really hard thing, but when I was questioning, what I really needed is time. Of course, I was confused as hell, but I needed to fully come to terms with who I was liking before I could start identifying myself as straight/bisexual/lesbian. It's pretty sure you'd like to date girls, and that is completely fine. I suppose what you need to figure out is how you feel about guys, and how you see yourself with a girl? I see a difference between sexual and emotional attraction, but I feel both are a factor when dealing with your sexuality. Think about how you would see yourself in 10 years? Would it be in a relationship with a guy, or a girl, or could it be either? But in fairness, I do base a large amount of my sexuality on how I view relationships, and others might disagree with this. And being in a small school sucks, I completely agree with you there. It depends how old you are, but I'm personally waiting until Uni. I'm well aware that it is highly unlikely I will start dating someone at my current school, so waiting until University is my only option really. I hope you find your answers here, it really is a great site. And feel free to message me if you want to talk more!
I've come to terms that I'm at least bi, but even recently I tried to go on a date with this guy but saw this cute girl while we were out and ended up pretty much ignoring him if she walked by. I felt really bad, but it was almost like I couldn't help it. I'm not a horrible person am I?
