I'm mean this world better off without me I'll never thought I'll been in this situation My life is so fucked up right now I don't know what to do now
If you want to you can share some more. I know how hard it can feel to put these things into words but even if you want to summarise it that might help other people here to support you more and sometimes just the act of writing problems down can really help.
I'm sorry you've been having a hard time. If/when you're ready and want to, maybe you can tell us a bit more about what's been going on? Maybe we can help (if only to lend an ear).