so, i came out to my grandma as gay and since then have gone to two therapy sessions. i told her that i really need a binder. my dysphoria is really getting bad. i have mini panic attacks when i see or feel them, but she doesnt understand. theres no way to get it on my own. i just dont know what to do. ive been binding with an ace bandage, but it really hurts and now it is getting so stretched out. i cant handle not having one. she said that i would be embarrassed to show up to school with a flat chest but i told her that im embarrassed to show up with a chest. she still doesnt get it. she thinks that im not that big so it shouldnt matter. she said that i used to be pretty chesty and i literally wanted to burst out crying. i dont know how to help her understand. im miserable. what would you do if you were in this situation. im at a christian college and the underworks website is blocked as porn, so its not even an option to order it on my own. please help.