Hi everyone, I’m 18F and I identify as bisexual. I’ve discovered I was bi when I was 12, rarely ever questioned my sexuality. But now I have a much bigger problem. Recently I have been questioning if I’m a male. People told me I probably was if I’m questioning, but it’s deeper than that. I never felt bad about having a girl name, a female genital, wearing dresses or skirts or being called a “woman”. But there’s this little thing: I daydream as a male since I was little. I thought that this was just an imaginary character who I play like a game in my head, but suddenly it got too real and I realized it was an alter ego. He has a name, a backup story and kinda lives the life I’ve ever wanted, in my head. So what do i do? I never thought I’d be trans but this confuses me. Please lmk your thoughts
Hello @cays I was exactly the same. First I came out with my sexuality but the biggest problem for me was my gender. I also named my guy side! It made it easy for me to deal with. He’s the invisible part of me that nobody can see and it made it feel real if I named him. There was a spell I identified as non transitioning FTM I even identified as bi gender at one time! However, although I got dysphoric days, I knew if I completely transitioned over to male, I’d feel the same the other way. There are things I don’t mind about being in my female body. There are things I’d love to change yes, but to go fully male there would be things I wouldn’t like. So I decided to label myself non binary. I’m not completely female and I’m not completely male. I sit somewhere in the middle, even though I’m more on the masculine side. But to look at me I’m not butch, just soft butch. I embrace that masculine persona of mine. If you are happy to remain in your female body then perhaps you’re non binary too?
It’s really good to know I’m not the only one. And yes, I’d be the same way if i ever transitioned. I guess I skip the part where I can be in the middle, and don’t have to choose a side. I like having “girly” body parts and “girly” stuff. Thank you for your response. I guess I’ll think about my gender again
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I think that what your saying is that you are trans but also maybe demigirl not really wanting to think that your a girl but born with the female genitals. Sorry if I'm going to far with this. I just think that you can be whatever you picture yourself to be.
