I just masturbated over a guy, but I have a girlfriend?!?

I wouldn't freak out just yet. Plenty of people can appreciate other attractive people, doesn't mean they want to have sex with all of them. I find some guys good looking, but don't want them touching me. In general I don't think porn is a good indicator of sexual orientation, there's no accounting of what does it for you, unless you're fantasizing about being one of the people in the scene. I watch gay male porn - doesn't make me a gay male.
If you're still sexually attracted to your girlfriend, you're at least partly straight so nothing has to change, unless you decide to actively explore the other potential aspects of your sexuality.

 

Well, ConfusedGuy4321, looks like we have a lot in common.

And even if I do end up imagining myself having sex with a good looking older man, it doesn't feel good. I think heavy porn usage has allowed me to imaging myself doing sexual things with men, which is why I get uncomfortable with men that look like the ones in porn, because to me, I think that someday I'm going to act on my porn fantasies which is extremely scary.

As mentioned, tastes in porn can manifest itself if the usage increases. My fantasies have evolved to incest which is somehow compelling in porn but disgusting in reality. So with this in mind, I feel that I am still attracted to women, and to some degree attracted to a very limited amount of men (idealized types, as it were).

The envy part you mentioned is quite true in my case. I imagine myself in that man's shoes with an attractive woman.

I get extremely uncomfortable when I see a guy like the ones in porn. It doesn't feel good, it drives my anxiety insane.

 

Having a little attraction to guys while in a straight relationship isn't the worst thing ever. For one, aside from the stigmas associated it and the increase in times you're attracted to somebody other than your s/o, there's absolutely nothing wrong with it. You're not perverted, or twisted, or anything. Some people are sexy.

And for another, you don't have to give up your "straight" identification because you might like looking at guys. If you plan on staying with your gf and couldn't imagine being with a guy, you're fine. No need to throw out everything you think you know about yourself.

My own identification of bisexuality started in a way similar to what you're talking about, and the stress evaporated as soon as I said to myself, "I'll check out whomever strikes my fancy." If labels don't factor in emotionally, they can't hurt you.

 

i'm new to this forum but have been dealing with these issues for over 2 years now and can relate completely. I suffered with anxiety my entire life but never really questioned my sexuality until i was 23(im 25 now) i would watch all different types of porn including gay until it sent me into a panic attack one day. Normally id close the browser and just go about my day being attracted to girls. Now i am constantly questioning everything and stressing which has killed my libido and essentially turned my life upside down. I cant say i have the answers for you because i don't even have the answer for myself but i sympathize with you and here if you ever wanna talk buds