For some reason I have been feeling like I don't value my friendships anymore. I know my friends are real and I don't hang out with them for another reason like popularity or something. I also know I still love them. I love them with all my heart. However for a few days now their hugs don't offer me comfort anymore. I laugh with them. I talk with them. In the moment it all seems fine but when I'm out of all that, for some reason I don't want to be with them anymore. It feels as if I don't love them, while I do. I've never ever felt this. I used to be so happy about seeing them. I used to get so excited about a hug or a kiss. Maybe it's because the novelty of t has worn off? But I don't think so because I feel the same way about my newer friends. I didn't always have this many friends, maybe the excitement has worn off because of it? Could the solution be to be alone for a while? I don't know I tried that, but I didn't feel much better. I'm scared I'll push my friends away because of this. I don't want to lose them but I don't want to feel like this all the time. They are still very important to me, I know that. It could be that I'm pushing them away because I'm hurt. I've done that before. Would that mean that I subconsciously got hurt? It feels like I can't be happy with people, and I can't be happy alone either. All this while I thought everything was okay. I'm just confused and not sure what to do and I have no idea what I'm feeling. I hope anyone can relate to this, but I don't think so because I'm being very vague. Sorry about that, but it's very vague for me too.