There's several reasons why I don't feel queer enough. The first reason is my sexuality itself. I do find girls attractive, but I get insecure about how strong my feelings are. I also get insecure about my feelings for guys. I find certain guys good looking and I'm never sure if I'm attracted to them. I get the most anxiety about my feelings for guys when they flirt with me and I enjoy it. Especially when I'm with people I know and they act all happy about it. If I act like I enjoy the flirting, I'm scared they'll think I'm into guys. The other thing that causes anxiety is how feminine I am. When I was a kid I was a classical girly girl. I loved wearing dresses, having long hair and playing with dolls. When I grew up I got less girly. Mainly because of fashion and practicality. At the moment I'm not presenting as femininely as I want. I just look like a typical lazy girl. Whenever I make my appearance more feminine I feel happier and less awkward. I'm scared I'll have to deal with more sexism if I make myself look more feminine. I'm also scared people will be less likely to take my sexuality seriously. Especially if I seem like I enjoy flirting with guys.