so, last week one of my friends passed away. he was only 31 and just celebrated his birthday recently. I just can't believe he's gone and I catch myself waiting for him. I try to kill the pain away, but the memories always come back. and so does the pain. it painfully reminds me that he will never come back. I loved him. on my own, weird way. he was one of the most important people in my life. I'm mad at the world for taking him away, and at myself for not being able to save him. I miss him so much I could just leave everything behind to get him back :'( please, tell me how to deal with this pain. please. it's killing me.