For 6 years I've been questioning I don't know why I can't accept it, it's like I don't want to. I wrote a post a few weeks ago http://emptyclosets.com/forum/sexual-romantic-orientation/209397-do-you-agree-im-not-straight.html I read that and agree with what people have replied, thank you to everyone that did. But I make excuses for myself, like that I was just looking at things in a particular way when I wrote it. I don't know how to move forward. I get that it's a gradual process but I feel I'm wasting my years.
Hey it's tough. Try not to be too hard on yourself, these things can be scary and take time. I found when I was questioning that when I had gotten to the point where I was quite sure I was gay, I would get to the point where I was chatting on EC to people but as soon as I then wanted to make the move to coming out and telling someone in real life all my doubts resurfaced. I can only explain it like I was taking a leap of faith or stepping over the point of no return and I think it's because talking to people online is great but at any point you can delete your account or just never log back in but when you go to tell a friend or a relative it almost makes it really real. Even though this is what we want I used to get this 'but what if I'm wrong' thought in my mind. The thing is and in the end I got to the point where I was like so what, if I'm wrong I'm wrong. If I come out and then fall in love with a guy so what. It's not a one way street I am entitled to change my mind if it happens but it never has and I've never looked back. You just need like 5 seconds of bravery, we all have it in us somewhere you just have to find it.
