Hi, I could really use some advice on how to stop being a psycho and just not put myself through this anymore. Back in early February a guy and I had a solid date. To make a long story short, he was heavily flirting and while I don’t usually like doing anything past kissing on the first date, the vibe felt right so I went for it. He said he didn’t want to go there and I accepted that. I freaked out the whole week after that thinking I gave him the wrong impression of myself and I ended up texting him saying I feel like he isn’t into me and this should end. I regretted it the next morning and that text ended up changing everything. Over the past 5 months I have been texting about every week or so. One week he will respond for a little (and very dry) and then he won’t respond the next 4 times. I tend to text him at night - I guess when I’m lonely and reminded of him. Sometimes I’ll go stretches of two weeks or so without texting him and then I’ll impulsively do it at night. Every time I do it I regret it soon after because I’m waiting for a response that I never get. At this rate, I feel like it’s entertainment for him. He doesn’t block me and he decides when he wants to respond. One time he even responded and started talking about how he was horny. The next time I texted him, I got no response. While I’m being too much and KNOW I have to stop, I feel like he really isn’t being fair to me either and he knows how much this hurting me. Side note: I’m 23 and he is 40. He is out to people and on apps but his parents don’t know he is gay (which in my opinion means he hasn’t been in a serious enough relationship for the person to meet his family, which I find strange). So firstly, do you think he is playing games with me / somewhat being unfair in this situation? But most importantly, how do I stop myself from constantly sabotaging myself and feeling like crap? I just can’t take this much more, but I seem to have no self-control at times. Thanks in advance for any help.