This is really scary, and I might take this down right after I post it, but here goes. I've lived most of my life convinced that I'm 100% straight, and have never really felt conflicted about my sexuality. Lately, mostly through therapy and meditation, I've realised that I actually am at least somewhat attracted to guys as well. It's something I've known "subconsciously" all along, and been in denial of, but only its only recently I've managed to consciously understand it. Its really weird how one can know something and simultaneously not know it, I don't really know how to describe it. Right now this feels like just another thing I have to deal with, but I think eventually it might be the end of a long road of anxiety and depression. So yeah, I'm not 100% straight, but I am pretty much 100% confused right now. I hope signing up and posting this here might help.
Let me say this first ghorgh Welcome to EC ,you have come to the right place I too am new here and I understand they way you are feeling. I am 40 and just now starting to "comeout ". It is hard to understand feelings sometimes I am here if you ever need to talk I may not have all the anwsers but I am a great listener pm me any time !!!
Any time my new friend I came to this site looking for help and friendship and I have found it ! please message me anytime you need to talk
