Hi everyone I've been lurking and reading for a while now, I guess I should introduce myself. Im a 40 year old woman living in Ireland. I was in a heterosexual relationship for 12 years, ended it 5 years ago...because it just wasn't working for me anymore. Finally, after about 4 years I began to feel normal again after the relationship end, which took a lot out of me. About a year ago I had a moment of total clarity... I am gay. It was like I had been hiding something from myself for the whole of my life, and suddenly it was clear. I had had crushes on female teachers when I was young, but as a child brought up in a strict catholic environment I barely knew what homosexuality was by the time I was leaving school, never mind personally know a gay person. The more I think back on my life, the more giant signposts I can see now, that were totally pointing towards my sexual orientation..... I am out to a sister and two friends. . Through meetups I have met a bunch of great ladies and am easing into my new self. This site has been a great help, particularly this later in life forum- thanks everyone!!!:icon_bigg
