Welcome Stephen. It can be fairly lonely and depressing in the closet, so I hope you will stick around and use EC for help, support and friendship. Many of our members are in the same position as you (closeted), or they are in the process of coming out and some of us have happily escaped the closet and come here because we remember what it was like and want to offer a shoulder to lean on. You're not alone on this journey. We're here for you.