Hi everyone and thanks for allowing me to join your community. Where to start... I 32 and from Scotland, near Glasgow. I've been in love once in my life when I was 15 and no surprising with my beautiful best friend. Sadly I broke it off as I was scared And confused. Since then I've been in purely hetero relationships that have never lasted, mainly due to me and lack of wanting to be touched or have an active physical relationship. This may be due to a sexual abuse when I was younger or down to being gay... I really don't know. I have fantasies about being with another girl and am jealous of my gay friends who are in happy stable relationships. Sometimes I feel like I'm destined to be alone as I have recently started suffering from social anxiety and have started self harming again. Im not sure what step to take next. Sorry for being such a a depressing introduction, its nice to just finally find somewhere to write this down. Xx
Hi GCJ! Yay Glasgow! Same here! Well, Paisley. *sips Irnbru* Big welcome to EC! I've been where you are now so I hear ya. I'm now married to a cheeky Glaswegian nutcase and madlyyyyy in sappy-stuff. Just dealing with family pish from my past too. We are here for ye. Have a good nosey through all the threads. Keep talkin. Lynz
No way, I live in the glorious town of paisley too!! Isn't it just delightful I hope I'm just going through a bad patch, what with it being Christmas and all. I'm happy you have found your nutcase thank you for the support xx
Lol, oh aye it's pure gorgeous here! Hahahaha I have my cycles too yup totally, especially around xmas. The self-loathing and depression and having to be all Santa's-comin cheery. NAW. Thanksssss But aye seriously - I'm here if ye need a rant or have any questions. Lots of nice folk on here