i dont know if any of you have been to (name of teen chat site removed by mod). but its basicly a chatroom where gay teens meet so they can hook up over skype. about six months ago i was sexting over msn with people i met online. i knew it was bad but couldnt stop for a month or so. i finally deleted my email and all the pictures one day and hadnt done any of that until the other day. i found this site and last night i saw a 14 year old suck his 12 year old brothers dick on skype. i jacked off to it even tho i knew it was wrong and felt absolutely teerribal after. i know i should not be doing it but i bet i will do it again. Two things, how can i stop and am i like a pedofile if im 15 but im watching a kid who hasnt gone through puberty yet get a bj?
Well dear, as humans, we are a bit twisted, but when things become of ouf hand, and illegal, it's time to take a step back. Because of the enormous tempation of online sexual activity (chats, skype, ect), I think it's in your best interest to go cold turkey on this one. If you let yourself be even a little bit promiscuous, it will often be too hard to stop there. It's a lot to ask of a 15 yr old boy to turn off his computer, erase website adresses and so on, but you sound as if you're certian you are not on the right path, and of course, the only way to fix that is to stop altogether and head the other way. You have all the support you need right here I promise. You can do this, I believe in you wholeheartedly! You are a normal kid, with normal impulses and feelings, getting them under control , and to the point where you can handle them is important to your phsycoloical health, so I encourage you to find more constructive ways to express your sexual energy. Things such as running, wrestling, finding a girl or boy frind to hang around with are all good ways to distract yourself while kicking this habit. The best of luck to you!! And feel free to contact me any way you want on this website :]
Hi, First, be clear that you're putting yourself at severe risk. Viewing, downloading, or having anything to do with child porn (and there's no question that's what you were watching) is a felony and the feds are aware of nearly all the sites out there that include it. And you can be tracked, even if you're anonymous. So you're taking a severe risk, and it's something you should stop right now. Additionally, if you're webcamming with other people, *you* are producing child porn if you're masturbating or otherwise exposing yourself sexually on camera, because you're under 18. And you never know who you're really camming with; a lot of people store their cam chats and upload them to various sites, and the last thing you need is videos floating around the net of you masturbating or whatever else. However, as far as the pedophilia stuff goes, you're 15, and you're talking about people who are within a couple years of your age. I'm a little less concerned about whether you have pedophilic tendencies in your case than I am about the fact you're viewing illegal content. My suspicion is that you're just horny and most anything involving sex with two guys will get you off. So I have a couple of suggestions. First, as Katt said, you should delete references to that site, and stay off of other sites where sexual chatting is happening. I know it will be difficult, but you're heading down a road that isn't healthy. While it's perfectly normal to have sexual urges and to act out on them by masturbating, to take that a step further and have constant sexting, sexual chats, or webcamming is not only illegal, it's not emotionally healthy and will lead you down a path where it will be difficult to have healthy sexual expression in relationships. I would suggest, for starters, that you talk privately with me or any of the other advisor team. We can help you set up some boundaries for yourself and act as a point of accountability to help you let go of the desire to do what you're doing. I think you may also want to think about the possibility of getting some counseling to help you. It's very possible you're just horny and need to have your sexual energy channeled in the right direction, but it would also be easy to end up in a very bad situation if you don't get some help. The important thing to know is... you aren't a pedophile. You just need help focusing your sexual energy into a healthy outlet, including the suggestions that Katt gave you. And you've also mentioned that you're questioning your sexuality. I think as you become more comfortable with wherever you are on the sexuality continuum, a lot of the other stuff will fall into place.
