I am a girl (fully out as Bi) Im supposed to like girly things and dress girly and be super kawaii, thats what is expected of me. But...im not sure. I used to just be like "Okay, Im pretty sure im a guy" and had partially come out, Had a name, Chest flattened, etc.... Then I decided I wasnt. I wasnt Eli, I was Emii. But now, I have a bf, who is amazing....and straight. So, If i do decide to "go Eli".. I could lose him. And, Im not even sure.... What do I do with all this confusion...?
Hi!!! My heart goes out to you and hope you can feel a big hug!!! I hope you have people around to give those! You don't have to have it all figured out! There isn't a big rush on this and you don't have to declare yourself to the world as one thing forever and ever. Life is for living and exploring and experiencing. Sometimes you might lose some friends who aren't ready to wrap their heads around it all, that's okay too. Take some of the pressure off and if someone asks you to define yourself you can tell them you hope to never be limited to one definition!!