Hey. I talked to a guy i thought was absolutely brilliant yesterdy, i really wanted to get to know him Better, maybe ask for his number. But i didnt, i just left quickly feeling aweful from a lot of grey feelings. It really made me worried about dating. The things that make me upset was: - i didnt know his sexuality, and im never comfortable to ask - even if his sexuality applied to males, i felt he probably wouldnt be happy or attracted to someone like me when my body doesnt match my inside - it was awful because of the way i look i couldnt feel confident. I felt completely like he wouldnt really 'see' me, but a girl trying to talk to him instead. - it makes me doubt if anyone would accept me for the way i am, i cant change in an instant, im no where near ready to come out. Even when i dated someone trans* the insercurity that they wherent attracted to me still provailed. I also felt horrible because i felt like i wasnt 'man' enough, that i was playif a feminine role in the relationship and it made me feel ill with myself, whoever im with that feeling wont go away. I just want my body to match, its getting in the way of living happily, i know im young but i cant be with someone. What should i do?
