I have been a loner, and introvert all my life. I am not as shy and quiet as I was in the past. Coming to accept myself and progressively coming out of the closet at 56 as a gay man over time has progressed but I am still shy sexually and I don't know if that will ever change. I am just not a very forward person who takes the first step. But I have tried dating sites out there but there are so many scammers and person looking to hook up. I just don't want to hook up I want to find that special man in my life. In fact I am afraid to meet men online, its just too dangerous. I am wondering if I will ever be able to even put myself out there? I live in a very small town in south Arkansas 100 miles from any big city. I am a Christian as well? I pray that I will find someone later in life to share my life with. With the COVID going on my hope is dim. I want to believe I will find someone to fall in head over heels in love with...I just don't want to give up!