Okay, so- I'm a female and I've always considered myself to be cisgender. I've never thought about it much, really. I have had this feeling recently (for the past few months) that I want to be a gay man. I'm not attracted to guys as a girl, but I think I would be if I was a man. I find myself being jealous of guys, how they act, and how they can dress. I think I'd be pretty okay with female or male pronouns. And if I woke up randomly as another gender, I'd be okay with it. Also, a side note- I"ve tried binding before, and it felt really really good to me. But I don't know if that means anything. This is all super confusing for me- can anyone help??
So the attraction thing makes sense to me. A lot of the reason that I thought I was a lesbian at first was that I didn't want to be a guy's girlfriend. It makes sense to me that you could be attracted to guys but not if they see you as female. If you liked binding that could be a sign of dysphoria. A good question to ask yourself would be whether it felt better or more right than not binding did- whether it feels more right to you to see yourself with or without breasts. If you end up continuing to bind make sure you're doing it safely.
