I know the title of this post or the post itself might get me some backlash, but being who I am, I'm more than use to being hated by others so... Not trying to offend anyone. I'm a white guy in his mid 40s, a pending ex-wife, and a child. I thought for the longest time I was bisexual, but after alot of struggles in my journey, I realize I am gay, not bi. Sure in the hell not straight. I am something that even in today's society, being who I am is problematic and scary. If had a choice, I would have been born straight and simply moved on with my life, but I wasn't and life is way harder on me. I have plenty of staright friends and such people. They have the normal life issues we all have, but that's as as far as it goes. They don't struggle with the issues I have. They do t know I'm gay. They think I'm straight. If they knew the the truth, all hell would happen and that's my point. If people knew who I was, I would get hurt by their reactions, but if they think I'm straight, friends, co-workers are okay with me. I know this because I have experience it. I wish I was straight. Shit, I'm depressed, need to get drunk, and not feel anything for as long as I can. Being me sucks and being who others will exsept sucks too. I hate who I am and I hate being anyone else. Ye, I'm depressed, I need to getting drunk, and I so need not feel anything right now.