I guess I found the reason on why I'm so angry. It's just standard coping mechanism for when destiny kicks your ass. I tried to wait and see if it goes away, very typical. Then anger, rage. Somebody has to be at fault. For me, a conservative, who could be better than LGBT? If they would keep their mouths shut, I wouldn't have noticed. If they wouldn't be so daring in their agenda I could live with it. If this, then that. Doesn't make any sense. No one caused me being transgendered. You didn't, I didn't. You just happen to suit as an enemy very well. So I guess all I can is apologize. It's gonna take a while after all I took a year to get through denial. I don't even know why I'm writing this. Why I'm back. To set things straight? Talk about other things rather than outing, because we're not gonna agree on this one but help each other on the other ones? Whatever. I'm fragile. Fucking far away from the man I want to be. Truth is, as a rather masculine guy I become a bunch of complexes. Too small, too thin, not enough muscle. Never good enough.