In my freshman year of High School I thought I was a trans girl and created a account I spent approximately half a year being relatively active. I eventually succumbed to the catholic pressure around me and went through four miserable years of self hate. In that period I went through a number a phases that I really want to forget. I eventually found my “salvation” in Hellenic neopaganism, since then I’ve been trying to free myself of the old catholic guilt. I still have a subconscious homophobia towards myself; I feel a weird guilt and disgust for myself when I find myself attracted to men. The only person I have to talk to is my older sister who’s a full time student, so I’m back seeking social interaction and support in conquering myself and eventually coming out to the whole family.
Hello, and welcome to EC! This site is great for connecting with others who have gone through the same things. Hope you find your stay here pleasant and insightful/helpful. Feel free to ask if something is unclear.
Welcome! You poor thing! I too went to Mass and attended Catholic parochial schools. It too me years to shed feelings of self-loathing and guilt that I picked up through the years. The Church erred and really got it wrong with homosexuality and LGBT issues. God made you the way you are, so be proud of that and not be riddled with feelings of sin and shame. I have to say that at least in Greek mythology, many of the gods were much more sexually liberated. There are some fine people here who can offer sage advice, support and encouragement. Feel free to chat with any of us.
