sorry there are so many of these, but here i go... so last summer, at a camp away from home, i started to feel like i might be trans. the thing is, it happened all at once--i got incredibly body and socially dysphoric, and i started putting my hair up under a hat, filling in my eyebrows, etc...when i got home from the summer camp i was at i immediately cut my hair short and bought a bunch of men's clothes. but once i got back to school in september, the dysphoria kind of...went away? i was able to look down at my chest without wanting to die, lol. but now, months later, the dysphoria's back and better than ever(tm). i bought a binder a while back, but i have a pretty big chest and it doesn't bind as well as i'd like. dressing in male clothing makes me feel great, and i fantasize about having a flat chest, and things like that. im ashamed and confused about how im feeling, but i know one thing almost for sure--being androgynous/genderfluid is not what i am. they/them pronouns just don't feel right, but neither do female ones. i feel like im just another kid with the tumblr syndrome, if you get me; and id really like something that could push me one way or the other. am i trans, or just some open-minded teenager? any advice? thanks for reading.