so i identify as straight and always have. i’ve got ocd and it makes me question if i’m gay, which sometimes feels like it could be real but then other times it seems like the most unrealistic thing ever. but what if my ocd has been trying to tie down completely straight or completely gay and i’m bisexual? i do see attractive guys when i’m walking around the streets and i get an anxiety spike. before this i would more view them as competition if that makes sense. i can’t tell if it’s just a platonic attraction or sexual. i’ve never masturbated to gay fantasies only straight ones. never gotten hard with a guy either. but is that because i just haven’t allowed myself to feel those attractions? i mean i have tried to get into it but it doesn’t feel right i guess.