A bit lonely and lost

Hey thank you so much for the welcome!

I guess I am a bit frustrated - I don't mean to be. Everything can just be so confusing and hard to handle at times. Trying to handle interactions with other people can be so hard for me sometimes for some reason, I think I've just felt especially lonely lately and that as I've gone further into my 20s there are things that just haven't changed. I'm constantly trying to work on myself and I know there's still time, but sometimes I'm trying to juggle all my thoughts and feelings and actions and I start to really confuse myself! So I guess having other people's input can help me when I get like that.

Thank you for all the information you've provided too, it's nice to know a bit more about how this forum works.

And thank you again for your welcome. This place has been helping me a bit already, it seems full of friendly people and like a really welcoming place to be

 

Whoops it seems I accidentally attached a tiny dot or something, don't know how I did that sorry!

 

I'm sorry to hear that =(

I don't have a circle of friends either. It can be very tough trying to get through things without a second opinion sometimes

Sorry Robyn mac I forgot to quote you too

Thank you. I think I am trying too hard. I think I drove somebody away this year partly because I get desperate, insecure and try too hard to please people.

I feel a lot of general anxiety, things like how I look, how old I am (silly I know, many of these aren't 100% rational), about all kinds of things. I'm not as bad now as when I was younger but I still struggle with anxious feelings.

I like to read too. Watch videos, shows, music. Walk. There are things I enjoy. I guess it's just hard being as introverted as I am to feel like I'm ever going to meet people or get my life together sometimes.

But yes I do probably try too hard too.

 

Weird how talking things through helps. I've been holding on to feeling like I look awful for well over a decade, it started when I was about 12. Had eating problems, massive anxiety, became borderline agoraphobic over the years. But I was so isolated that I didn't realise how common it was for people to feel similar to me until very recently

I think the reason behind the age thing for me is complicated, it's been a weird issue for me for a long time too. Maybe being socially isolated again I guess, feeling depressed, on my own and not feeling like I've lived whole chunks of my life because of my mental health issues makes me feel not old but like I've wasted the time I've had already or something. And the gay thing about twinks and youth really gets to me too sometimes. Lots of stuff apparently being so hypersexual and looks based kind of affects me. Don't get me wrong I try to present myself as well as I can but I want to be valued for who I am more and I guess I've found it difficult to find people who I feel like I click with.