What are you thinking?

i'm think about my crush

 

It's nice to know, despite how conservative my dad is, that if there is science backing it up he supports it.

Social sciences unfortunately don't count, but gotta take what I can get.

 

I woke up too early and hope this doesn’t mess up the sleep cycle I had. In the winter it’s not feasible to be nocturnal so I need to be awake during the day which is harder for me than being nocturnal,

 

Ugh I need to get a job.

 

I'm feeling oddly at peace with myself for once.

 

Thinking about whether or not to have a bowl of Cocoa Krispies.

 

I'm thinking about how I got rejected from a volunteer role. A volunteer role. Work I was offering to make for free.

Excuse me whilst I scream into the void that is the job market.

 

I was watching YouTube videos on the price of healthcare in the US and even though I don’t see the need for half the medical appointments I have, I do appreciate that due to my disability I get them for free. I did wait 3 years to see a total idiot who didn’t want to do his job. The physiotherapist I saw before I tried that guy told me he would try to avoid the outpatient procedure to fix my torn meniscus and he was right. I could pay to see doctors faster and then for the procedures they do but I don’t have €4000 to waste.

 

I'm thinking about making new friends from this awesome place/

 

Some places are very popular and tons of people want to volunteer there. Dumb to turn people away though.

Some people probably don't stick it out very long though, so if you really wanted to volunteer there, could always try again in awhile

 

I’m thinking about how I need to get out more and make friends. Except I really don’t want to get out more. The small blessing covid gave me was a legitimate reason to become more of a shut in. My parents are no longer telling me I need to get out more and my dad has stopped saying how I won’t meet any men up this mountain. That’s actually a bonus except the same applies for women.

 

I didn't particularly want the specific role itself (frankly I'd rather be in a paid internship in an area I care more about), but I could see certain changes that I could've made to improve it which would've reflected well on me. The business doesn't seem to know what it wants to do just yet since it's fairly new, so it was a surprise to see it become so popular out of nowhere. I just wanted the experience to put on my CV in the hopes that it'd convince some AI somewhere that I'm worth hiring.

 

I was thinking about when I could go home from work...Today is the first day at work after the Spring Festival holiday, and all I think about is my bed, my cat and my sweetest girlfriend...