What are you thinking?

I have an interview tomorrow. So I'm thinking about that.

 

thinking about my math test im supposed to be doing rn

 

Unfortunately, it was rescheduled. I'm a bit annoyed that they left it till a couple of hours before my interview to tell me that they're double booked. Apparently it's on Thursday now.

 

I have to get up in 5 hours and I’m not even tired yet.

 

Thanks. It turned out to not be what it was initially advertised as and I decided I was not a right fit for the role. Oh well, at least it gave me an opportunity to practice my interview skills. I hope I have more interviews in the future.

 

Ugh, I really wish I had some queer friends to be around.

 

I used to love anything lemon flavoured but after having to drink two litres of the most vile tasting liquid, it was supposed to be lemon flavoured but nothing could mask the despicable taste, for a medical reason, I don’t know if I will ever want anything lemon flavoured again.

 

There's a possibility that I may never experience falling in love or that I'll be forever burdened with the question of how do you know if you are in love or if you're just in infatuated with the idea of it? Frankly the whole subject seems like a headache in the making. It's kind of sad, realising that the milestones you took as something that will definitely happen may not after all. There's no guarantee that I will experience such things. I do not know what the future holds and the fact I am partly responsible for creating my future can seem downright daunting at times.

 

i understand how you feel i feel that way pretty often

 

I'm thinking about how there was a middle aged woman in my dream with an accent. People in my dreams either sound completely monotone and have no distinctive accent or they sound exactly like me. It's like this when I'm reading (in my head) books as well. However, not this time. In this dream she spoke with a distinctive accent that was different from mine. This is...I don't think this has happened before in my dreams until now.

 

The next big thing should be a pet translator app. I could explain to my dog that the wind can’t hurt her because she’s inside, and she can explain why she’s not freaking out about the wind when I’m with her and why she feels the need to pee all over the floor when she’s house trained.

 

I have so much more to learn...

 

think abt why math class is even allowed like math is fun and all but im tired

 

Thinking about how slow I am in my job as a software developer. Am I gonna meet the deadline?

 

Routine annoys me. Too little and I'm living in a chaotic spiral forgetting to do important things. However, too much of a routine and I don't feel like doing anything. Somehow, I need to find somewhere in the middle.