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My inner being communicates, my present me just doesn't know how to listen

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  1. brainwashed

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    Through very careful and deliberate listening, my inner being will communicate, I just don't know a) the language and b) do not know how to listen.

    What do I mean?
    Language: Listening is along the lines of the five and only basic psychological states - anger, fear, sadness, shame, joy.
    When I'm angry my inner being is communicating. When I laugh, my inner being is communicating.
    Ah but when there is shame coupled with a psychological block, my inner being can't communicate. My inner being wants to communicate, it just cant get past the block. I now recognize I now need an antagonist to tease the shame out.

    To listen, I meditate and put myself in an enviroment where "nothing is coming at me". What do I mean nothing is coming at me? No news, no internet, no people, etc.
     
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    Spirituality is a complex subject. It takes a lot of "digging" to understand one's self. Each person develops in their own individual way. I try to learn about myself through the observation of others.

    Shame and psychological blocks roots from trauma. I have been trying to understand my own. But it's quite the task as someone who lived very passively I have dismissed most aspects of my life.

    Do you remember your past traumas? If so, do you accept them??
     
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    Spot on. I'm such a great observer of others. I can now see things in others that I have never been able to see in the past. This also applies to movies I've watched in the past and now watch again. I can see more. Way more.

    Ok

    Very interesting question. I remember some "events" but understandable I do not remember how I felt. Psychological numbness is a very basic human trait. Numbness is a survival mode reaction.

    You ask, do I accept them? No, understandable, mainly because I have not had the benefit of therapy yet, I'm still fighting with them.

    Thanks for replying
     
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    Your Welcome.

    Fixing one's self is a difficult task, it takes so much digging and evaluation. But in time it can be done. Just keep going! And don't forget to Meditate!!
     
    #4 Zombi3, May 14, 2020
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