@Elle993 i feel that it wouldn’t go against my marriage but my husband is so critical and suspecting of everything. You would have thought he would have guess about my sexual orientation by now. It’s exhausting to have to give details of my everyday life. So I don’t look like a cheater because deep down that’s what he thinks.
Maybe you should come out to him then. Because I think if he knew you were struggling with your sexuality and had no desire to leave him he'd feel better. I would rather know what my partner was struggling to come to terms with rather than wonder if they were unfulfilled because I did something wrong.
@Love4Ever right now I’m going to have to that conversation sooner because I don’t know how long I can keep going on this way. I feel so trapped and that it’s hard to breathe sometimes. I don’t think we could keep a relationship with my lack of desire for sex with him.
Ah I see. I didn't realize you no longer feel compatible in this way. Is it possible that maybe you need to move on?
@Love4Ever i do think it’s time but for him no. He doesn’t see it, he just see I don’t want to have sex. But it’s more than that, we’re just roommates really no connection other than our kids. He has blinders on doesn’t like to face things I’m the opposite. I just don’t know what the outcome going to look like when I tell that’s what scares me.
I am sorry. I understand what it's like to feel like you love someone unattainable. The good thing is, she is attainable possibly. She is a real person, not an ideal or a celebrity like so many people I have fallen for, that I probably will never meet. Is she into women?
Well that's perfect! You're one step closer. I mean, a lot of girls are straight so that makes things hard. At least she's not straight.
Yes that is great, maybe her and I can be friends in the future. It would be nice to have someone in my everyday life to talk about lbgt stuff with.
Saw my crush yesterday and OMG!!! She looked soo fucking hot. I mean damn I wanted to run to her and kiss her so bad it hurt. Instead I just said hi and hope she has a great day. Later I felt soo depressed and just down, ended up going to bed early. Today I feel sick because I feel like I blew my chance of started a conversation. Maybe even a friendship, this cold weather is wrecking havoc on my mental state.
Yes I have had this happen. It was want kick started my same sex attractions. It happened to me about 5 years ago and the crush hasn't gone away on this women. I still find myself hoping that I run into her. I dont see her often anymore. I wish I did. I don't know much about her either.