When I wake up from some beautiful dream and reality kicks in, breaking all illusions. And when I see a couple. It sucks to be single. Why do we fall for straight guys?
when i'm with a group of friends and they are all talking happily, but i am left to think of what to say, and it kind of spirals downward
When I'm trying to sleep and realize that pretty much every member of my family is going to die long before me. That makes me feel a bit lonely. Also hugs to everyone in this thread. (*hug*)
Ironically, when I am surrounded by people. In particular when there is a strong emphasis on socializing. The only specific occasion when I can pretty much guarantee I'll feel lonely is Christmas; as the day wears on. 'The Little Christmas Cry' has pretty much become a yearly tradition by now lol. It only gets really bad if I'm in the company of a group (see above). ^Seconded. (*hug*)
When my best friend/crush is out partying without me, or worst when she hangs out with her ex-bff that still has no idea that she was downgraded to the no longer bff status :dry:
When I start realizing how alone I actually am. Most of the time, I'm in my head and day dreaming, which honestly, creates a lot of "lost time" with people. I know for a fact that this is bad for me, but it's the only way I can cope, so that I don't go overboard with emotions. I know it would be so different if the people who I feel should care for me, would actually care for me, but as we all know, that's not reality and it probably will never be. So, I make sure I'm pre-occupied and day dreaming. The downfall to that, is waking up from it all and remembering the cold truth.
It can strike at pretty random times. It's kind of odd for me, though, because when I get this crushing loneliness, the craving to have a close relationship comes with it, but I have a fear of getting extremely close with people at the same time. Side effects of falling in love with someone straight, I guess.