Small Victories

I'm getting closer to coming out. I've taken the slow approach and just said a few small things here and there, as well as getting rid of all female clothing in my wardrobe today. I think my parents might start suspecting something soon. And I also managed to make a binder.. out of old tights.

 

That's great! The slow approach might be frustrating at time but it does help to prepare people for your coming out, gives them a bit of a preview.

 

Came out to my oldest and best friend last night.

She took it really well and was super supportive! :eusa_danc

 

Congrats!

 

I just finished a letter I wrote for explaining my feelings on being trans and a possible undiagnosed mild depression I may have. I'm scared about leaving it for them while I'm on our school's music department trip but it's finished now so I'll have less will to back out since it's finally done!:eusa_danc

 

Good luck

I'm also moving out in a couple of weeks.

 

I found a penny today.

 

I cut off all my hair as part of my continuing quest to stop caring what people think. I didn't have that much to start, maybe like 3 or 4 inches on the top and buzzed on the sides. Now I have one inch on top. It looks pretty terrible but IDGAF. It feels good and it is easy.

I've also started wearing shorts in public for the first time in about ten years.

 

A pretty penny? :eek:

 

So today I had a pleasant chat with my mom. I've only just recently really talked to her about my dysphoria, she was kinda shocked and mentioned"well are you trans then?" which kinda was my main reason for asking the question because I never really thought about it like that before, all I know is I've been disgusted with my own body for way too long... so anyways this topic was a week ago.

Today I decided to mention binders and binding so I can try to feel a bit more comfortable with myself (or at least a hope that I can). So this is really quite a small thing but this is how the conversation went.

Me: So...do you think if I wore a binder at work would anyone notice or comment or start to question what the heck I'm doing?

Mom: Well I mean.... you already try to dress to hide your chest anyways and you've got a pretty small chest naturally that I don't think anyone would notice.

Me: Okay ... but what if they DO notice and ask me?

Mom: Well if they do then just make something up or tell them it's none of their business! It's your body and you're just doing what you want to to feel comfortable.


This small exchange just in general made me really happy all day and it's a nice feeling that I can be open about this with my mom.

 

I went to an Irish pub tonight, all by myself... Sat at the bar, had a couple of pints, chatted with the (very) cute bartender and had an appetizer. It was all very, very normal and even in the wake of Orlando, I felt pretty safe. I call that a win.

 

Sounds similar to what I am going through. Finally moving out of dorm life aka, "jail life" and into a 3 bedroom apartment with two good friends of mine who I've known for almost 3 years now. They are also part of my support group, and I am glad because I will be a man living with 2 women, so I am super blessed to have there support in my transition. :eusa_danc:eusa_danc:eusa_danc

 

I finally mastered makeup, yay!

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A year ago I pretended to be my friend's boyfrined, and it went somewhat like this:
She: You changed, you became so handsome!!
Me: Yeah, I grew some big boobs, y'know, I don't even know when
She: *turns her head in a "na-ah" and looks at my chest, frowning*

 

so I understand that this means progress. congrats sis.

 

I've been working on deepening my voice and it seems I'm making progress. :icon_bigg

 

I ordered an stp. Nothing fancy, but I still totally can't afford it. Being able to pee standing up is very exciting to me. It is something I have yearned for waaaay before I knew I was trans. Like, pre pubescent. I have been trying to find ways to do this for as long as I can remember. This is one of the main signs I've had since childhood actually. I'm sure cis girls are curious and wish they could, but for me it was something of a fixation.

 

yaaayyyyy congrats, I know you've been working towards this for a long time.(*hug*)