What are you thinking?

I can't seem to put things into perspective. My head's a mess. I'm unobjective. I feel so incapable it's ridiculous. :tears:

The worst part is I'm projecting my negative thoughts onto the one person who I know believes in me, which makes me feel like a horrible person.

 

Last year I didn't kiss anyone until June. This year I've kissed six people in the first three weeks. How the hell did I get game?

 

If I have to listen to her tell me about how evil I am for not being out to my family one...more...time...

 

hot choco and some bagels (breakfast mode)

 

Why must things be so hopeless?

 

"I want him to love me so much, even though I am gay." - Random lesbian chick that I follow on twitter. Him is a random Chinese dude she met.

 

I think ive figured it out. My mom does love me, she does care for me, she does mean well. She just doesnt know how to direct her anger. Now, I know that people deal with their emotions, and in this case anger, in different ways, but when it negatively affects everyone else....it's gotta stop. I try to tell her this all the time, that maybe she could calm down and problems would be solved much more easily, but it always ends up with me being yelled at for something I didnt even do. It scares me, it really does. It scares me how this could affect other important people in her life, and thus, how it affects her.

 

Tell her [whomever she may be] to go fuck herself. Though feel free to reword that if you'd like.




Maybe I'm just in a pissy mood because I feel like shit.

But seriously, does no one ever fucking proofread anything? I mean damn, you live in an age where there are little red squigglies under your fucking misspelled words. And for the love of god, learn the damn difference.

There. They're. Their.
Your. You're.

It's really not that hard. And I know for a fact, from dealing with a sister ten years younger than me, that I'm not just overreacting. But what the serious fuck do they even teach in school anymore? Anybody?

If I spell something wrong, it's more often than not, a damn typo. I tend to type a lot faster than I should, and it doesn't help that some of my keys stick sometimes because I'm such a keyboard smasher. But if I see that damn typo, you can bet your ass I am going to fix it. And if I honestly do not know how a word is spelled, or if I even hesitate for a second, I know Google is there to solve all my problems. Did you know there's a dictionary through Google???? Who would have ever thought?


I really do try to be understanding and patient and tolerant, but there are some things I just get so tired of seeing.

EDUCATE YOURSELVES. IF IT IS ALL YOU EVER DO IN LIFE.

 

Will i ever be able to have a boyfriend while pursuing my dream of doing drag? I'm really starting have my doubts of being too "feminine" for guys types... :dry: :eusa_doh:

 

Cramps are killing me

 

Bout demolishing those blueberry muffins my sister made...she will never know :badgrin:

 

Post to the person on FB: You are not judge and jury. Only God can judge me. I am glad that you know the Bible so well. Christians like you are why people leave the church. So get back in your bigot box and quit playing God. Bye...

 

I changed my profile I like it. How long do pictures take to be moderated. If I use a picture that is currently being moderated as a background can others see my background, or do I have to wait until that picture is approved?

 

I've got to say, I'm kinda neutral when it comes to the United States. I don't usually like/dislike the country.

However, I feel so damn proud of America when I see the shit NASA has done.



FUCK YEAH, AMERICA!!!!

 

People never cease to amaze me. You ignore me and don't speak with me for a month and yet act completely surprised when you discover that I defriended you on Facebook...

 

Is this what it's like to have a crush? Shit...

 

I'm so comfortable right now. I don't want to get up and do anything but, I have to.

 

I need more friends that aren't so emotionally detached from me and aren't afraid to tell me that they love me or care deeply or just be genuinely affectionate, etc. My former friend and I had lots of issues, obviously, but at least he was like me in the sense that he was highly emotional and affectionate. Granted, gaining new friends that aren't like that and aren't so open emotional was a breath of fresh air and really good for me at the place I was a year ago, but now I really need to find some friends that are open with the love and affection because I'm not getting it from anywhere right now.

 

So I think the guy sitting a table over from me just checked me out, but I'm probably imagining it. Either way, I'm too chicken to even smile in his direction

 

Being alive is stupid, lol