What Are You Thinking?

Thinking about food. I'm so hungry today!

 

I could really, really do without the dreams where I'm mid transition and my family is all cool and accepting.

 

Had such a lovely day... hope it's not ruined when my parents and I have supper with an elderly lady who I'm not out to...and probably never will be! lol Did not really want to go, but felt obligated to as I used to shovel snow for her and she was always nice to me and gave me good money. Maybe I'll get lucky and she won't mention my pink jeans, long-ish hair, or use male pronouns too much or at all...

I remember she was so happy a year or two ago when I cut my hair shorter because I looked more masculine or whatever. :dry:

 

Is it possible that my English teacher have crush on me ? Or maybe she just likes me.

 

Ouch. (*hug*) Do you get them often?

 

Richard Sherman is a dick. That is all.

 

I miss my EC friends so much. Where are you TJ, Steve and Brenny?

 

School holiday today so I'm stuck here at home. Day's been too long. I've done what I can to pass the time but it's only three and time's crawling.

 

The stairs in my building make me feel like I've never worked out before every time I go up them... Why do they make these stairs so steep?

 

Who's your local operator, by the way? Something is telling me that it's either Northern or London Midland. The delays I've endured with Scotrail aren't nearly as bad as that.

 

I'm trying to take a nap, but my depression and this urge to cry are keeping me awake.

 

Ugh I really dislike being at home :/

 

I guess in times like such I find it best to be "me." Letting my brain be the captain, heart the navigator, and body the vessel. Allowing the winds of change take me wherever needed, and allow the change of season to carry me further away from worry and sadness. To waste such a precious gift given at birth is but of the purest of ignorance. Thus, until the day "better" is impossible to achieve.. "good" will most definitely not be enough.. Nor acceptable...

 

About needing to move to a state that's less expensive in terms of rent/cost of living, but one that still allows gay marriage...it has come to cost a fortune to live in the DC/Baltimore area, and the east coast in general. I love New England, but places like Vermonst are also really pricey...and I'm not a big fan of the west coast, which is also very, very expensive.

So, this seems to leave two options that have some appeal:

New Mexico ( have a few friends there)

and maybe Minnesota.

Iowa seems too boring, and we want a medium sized town with nature close at hand, but some cultural activity/diversity.

But living here is killing me, it's so expensive, and there is SO much traffic, smog and congestion, it's hard to ever see nature.

 

I'm just thrilled that there was no traffic in either direction today because so many people (not me) had the day off. Such a refreshing change.

 

I'd go with New Mexico, personally. I've been told my my Minnesotan friends that if you don't like winter in Michigan, stay away from Minnesota.

 

Trying to find ear rings that are less girly.... Not luck so far

 

I visited my grandfather this weekend. It was nice. I got to see him and my family. My aunt gave me a CD of music made by her girlfriend. I'm also feeling baby crazy too. Odd weekend.

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The other day I meet a guy who had black holes for ear rings. They looked rather manly for ear rings.

 

That's what I was thinking. Plus, in NM, if you do want snow, you can go up in the mountains, and still enjoy it. I'd be looking at the northern part of the state.

Also, in looking at Minnesota, it didn't seem all that cheap, really, especially around in sort of city.

So maybe Santa Fe is one possibility, for a medium sized city, yet close to nature. Maybe I'll start a thread on this...but almost all the states where gay marriage is legal are also the most expensive ones to live in, which can be hard, if you're struggling.

 

I can't wait for next month. I have to go to San Francisco Zoo for an Anthropology project, and since I ride the train and that's something of a long journey I'm going out for a night on the town after I finish at the zoo. If I'm paying for train fair and spending three hours traveling for only an hour of work, I'm gonna enjoy the city after I finish what I went there to do. I haven't been to San Francisco in years, and never as an adult with the ability to go where I want and do what I want. It will be much fun.